God is in control:

A man from Norfolk , VA called a local radio station to share this on Sept 11th, 2003, TWO YEARS AFTER THE TRAGEDIES OF 9/11/2001.

His name was Robert Matthews. These are his words:

A few weeks before Sept. 11th, my wife and I found out we were going to have our first child. She planned a trip out to California to visit her sister. On our way to the airport, we prayed that God would grant my wife a safe trip and be with her. Shortly after I said 'amen,' we both
heard a loud pop and the car shook violently. We had blown out a tire. I replaced the tire as quickly as I could, but we still missed her flight. both very upset, we drove home.

I received a call from my father who was retired NYFD. He asked what my wife's flight number was, but I explained that we missed the flight.

My father informed me that her flight was the one that crashed into the southern tower. I was too shocked to speak. My father also had more news for me; he was going to help. 'This is not something I can't just sit by for; I have to do something.'

I was concerned for his safety, of course, but more because he had never given his life to Christ. After a brief debate, I knew his mind was made up.. Before he got off of the phone, he said, 'take good care of my grandchild. Those were the last words I ever heard my father say; he died while helping in the rescue effort.

My joy that my prayer of safety for my wife had been answered quickly became anger. I was angry at God, at my father, and at myself. I had gone for nearly two years blaming God for taking my father away. My son would never know his grandfather, my father had never accepted Christ, and I never got to say good-bye.

Then something happened. About two months ago, I was sitting at home with my wife and my son, when there was a knock on the door. I looked at my wife, but I could tell she wasn't expecting anyone. I opened the door to a couple with a small child.

The man looked at me and asked if my father's name was Jake Matthews. I told him it was. He quickly grabbed my hand and said, 'I never got the chance to meet your father, but it is an honor to meet his son.'

He explained to me that his wife had worked in the World Trade Center and had been caught inside after the attack. She was pregnant and had been caught under debris. He then explained that my father had been the one to find his wife and free her. My eyes welled up with tears as I thought of my father giving his life for people like this. He then said, 'there is something else you need to know.'

His wife then told me that as my father worked to free her, she talked to him and led him to Christ. I began sobbing at the news.

Now I know that when I get to Heaven, my father will be standing beside Jesus to welcome me, and that this family would be able to thank him themselves .

When their baby boy was born, they named him Jacob Matthew, in honor of the man who gave his life so that a mother and baby could live.

This story should help us to realize this: God is always in control.

We may not see the reason behind things, and we may never know this side of heaven, but God is ALWAYS in control.

Please take time to share this amazing story. You may never know the impact it may have on someone. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Give thanks to the Lord for He is good. His love endures Forever.
Psalm 136:1


(painting is from the artist joey velasco i love his paintings of jesus)

december 25

hay parang ang haba ng araw na to syempre me pasok ako ng 12a dec 25 dto nako ng 11p
hehhehe good thing about this time pag december 25 wala calls as in 0 calls talaga hehehhe arrive home 11a tulog ako woke up 330p then went to the mall by 8p megamall gala lang decided to watch movie mmff syempre hehehhe(jologs na kung jologs hehehe
support ko na to sa movie industry lol) 3 gusto kong panoorin mano po 6 mahilig ako sa melodrama tipong inaapi tapos gumaganti sa huli hehehhehe i love you goodbye maganda rin nakakaiyak kc yun and dinanas ko na din lol and shake rattle and roll hehehehhe pnanood ko yung horror and good natuwa naman ako matagal na kc akong di nakakarinig ng sigawan sa theater hehehehe yung jologs na sigawan sumisigaw kahit wla pang gulatan lol nakakatuwa tapos derecho work 12a of dec 26

daming magagandang movie ngayon grabe the last air bender, dear joe, clash of the titans, lightning thief, case 39

pasko parang normal na araw lang samin hindi nga kami nag decorate e i dont know cguro christmas is for kids talga ako kc i always believe i have my own way of thanking him and hindi naman kelangan maging pasko para magbgay di kailangan ng okasyon para maging masaya kelangan lang marunong kang magmahal para maging masaya ka
every time na me ngyayaring maganda sakin i always thank god literally sisigaw lang ako ng "thank you lord" and lagi ako nagpapasalamat sa lahat ng pag subok na binibgay sakin i thank everything that was given to me and everything that i have and everything that was left on me... that way my life would continue sya lang naman talga me hawak ng buhay ko kaya lahat ng ngyayari..papasalamat lang ako kahit minsan sobrang sakit minsan nararamdaman mo nawawala yun i remember nung time na pumpunta ako ng church lagi ako naiiyak tuwing communion offertory and yung kordero ng dyos na mga songs di ko alam kung bkt

and love ... i dont know fubu nalang muna siguro hahanapin ko tipong makakasama ko kada gimik

good story sent to me thru email

Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said,

'Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty.'

Then the second tree said, 'Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull.'

Finally the third tree said, 'I want to grow to be the tallest and
straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the Hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me.'

After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, 'This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter, 'and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.

At the second tree the woodsman said, 'This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard.' The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.

When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the Woodsmen said, 'I don't need anything special from my tree, I'll take this one,' and he cut it down.

When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.

The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end.

The third tree was cut into large pieces, and left alone in the dark.

The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.

Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.



Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and He stood and said 'Peace' and the Storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.




Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.



The moral of this story is that when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, God will give you great gifts.

Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined.

We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.

Please keep this moving... pass it on, so God may inspire more people on the way.

May your day be blessed. And until we meet again, may God cradle you in the palm of His hand.

kahapon nasa office ako kahit wala ako pasok lol dun ako for 7hrs tambay lang wala kc mgawag sa bahay ako lang dun and sasawa narin akong ako lang lagi mag isa sa restday ko kya gala ako or punta ako office..nanood ako ng movie after that indie film campus crush hahaahha nakakatawa sya bibili ako nito tapos papanood ko sa mga kasama ko sa office nakakatwa talaga sya entertaining ika nga indie film kc di mo kelangan tingnan acting mamatawa kalang kc sobrang frigid ang acting pero the film is good kc me sense ang laman ng mga script nila me sense ang bawat salita me laman ang importante sa kanila e yung masabi nila dapat nilang masabi tungkol sa script
wala pa yatang sampu laman sa loob hahhaahha pero syempre lahat bading ako nasa gitna lang with my starbucks frap(4 nalang makukuha ko na organizer ko hehehehhehe)

"sa maling pagkakataon me nabubuong relasyon"

tama na ang drama para mabilis ang pagtanggap at pagpapatawad"

some quotes nakuha ko sa movie makes sense naman meron pa nga dun na ang sabi
hindi tinuro sa magulang kung pano magpalaki ng bakla at di rin sinabi kung pano to papasayahin cguro dahil sa kelangan kusang hanapin ang kaligayahan nila kusang dumarating ...

(gusto ko nang mawala galit sa puso ko..gusto ko ng mawala pero bt ganon pag naiisip ko yun naiinis lang ako at naiiyak iniisip kong mas gusto ko pang mag isa kesa sa magpatawad...ang gago ko talga)


oo nga pala kahapon me nangyari sakin sobrang knatakot ko nag gym ako sandali sa fitness konting treadmill tapos steam room di ko alam kung bkt gnon ngyari sakin pero nung nag cold shower ako nahilo ako as in nawalan ako ng balance sa shower room buti nalang nakahwak ako mismo sa me shower tapo naramdaman ko bumagal tibok ng puso ko as in parang every 2 seconds sobrang bagal tapos bglang nag black out as in wala akong makita sandali lang akala ko aatakehin ako sa puso dasal lang ako tapos hnayaan ko lang muna sarili kong nakatayo sa shower tapos kusang bumalik sight ko normal breathng lang ako para back tonormal pero grabe takot ko hahahahha sobrang takot ko non diko alam dahil ba sa nasa gym ako and nakakahiya wala akong kasama ewan ko pero grabeng experience yun hay taba ko na kc grabe lol

anyway sensya na di ako nakakapag post tagal narin akong di nakakapag post hopefully magawa kong mag post 3 times a week

........ walang kwenta

just lost right now i just wish i can trust again
naiinis lang ako kc di ko narin alam kung ano ang tama at mali
kung cno ang nagsasabi ng totoo o hindi ang magnanakaw daw galit
sa kapwa magnanakaw.. pero nagbabago na kc ako and wala nakong nililihim
wala akong dapat itago kasi wala naman akong karelasyon and sex is just sex
sasabihn ko but i wont name drop

pakiramdama ko lang kc am being left behind again ... argh.. nakakainis kc tatangapin ko naman cla basta ayoko lang maiwan sa ere... pero ayoko ding magmakaawa maging parte ng isang samahan nasa labas pala ako ng kulambo ayokong maging ganon naranasan ko na yun at hanggang ngayon nalulungkot parin ako pag naaalala ko yun


naiiyak ako di ko dedeny ang lungkot lungkot parang di nako natuto tatangapin ko naman ano man baho nila ano man pagkakamali kc wala namn tama sa pagkakaibgan
ayoko lang ng sikreto

naiinis ako naiiyako at nalulunkot ako
nakakainis bt ganon nakakainis talaga
pero wala ako magagawa move on nalng
ayoko na talaga ng ganon siguro ako din me kasalanan
hinayaan kong maging ganito and di rin naman maganda
simula ng pagkakaibigan namin kaya yaan mo na
... nakakainis lang talga ang lungkot lungkot kc
gusto ko dumami ulit kaibigan ko .. nakakainis nakakainis
.....tang ina naman o bt ganon bt ganon....

first day of work...

hay grabe antok pako pero diko alam kung bakt.. bahay nako kahapon ng 4p tapos natulog ako ng 6p nagising nako ng 130a tapos tulog ulit ng 8a heheheh gising ng 130p pero antok padin ...

medyo busy busihan ako last week other than meron ding mga clients dto kaya d ako masyado makapag blog baka kc masita ako pero ngayon wala na heheheh ayun back to normal din heheheh isa pa 8 days straight ako last week kaya tamad talaga ako makapag sulat dami na naming calls kung nung dati 7 calls na ang pnaka madami ngayon
umaabot na kami ng 15-20 calls dahil sa bagong account hehehhe pero ok lang mabilis lang naman mga calls na pumapasok e since domestic lang ang mga flights na pnapabook


hay mga ganitong araw ako naiinis ...mali mali ganitong BUWAN PALA grabe sobrang tinatablan ako ...nawawala libog mo at tinatablan ka kc sa mga nakikita mo...
love... laht yakapan,holding,hands,dates movies about christmas at kung ano ano pa
dont get me wrong i have no plans looking for love just because .. its the season hehehehhee no di po di ako ganon maghahanap lang ng mamahalin dahil malamig ang pasko..pangit hehehehhe

but its nice to see that some really expresses their love on the net (pda)
facebook pa hehehhehe kakainggit minsan bitter butter na talga ako minsan pero
yaan ko nalang stick parin ako sa motto ko ..wag mo hanapin at kusa yun darating
hehehhehehhee



siguro what i'm feeling right now is..falling in love i missed it badly.. as in
i missed waking up texting and saying hi miss you and love you and gusto ko ako yung tatamaan sa kanya magkakagusto sa kanya hindi yung sya yung magkakagusto sakin
gets nyo? gusto ko ako yung mahehead over heals inlove dun sa guy ...

gusto ko maramdaman yun...gusto ko talga ma inlove ulit...
na inlove nako last time after my ex ... and...sobrang sakit lang nung nangyari
kaya lets not get into details ... hanggang ngayon pag naaalala ko yun nalulungkot parin ako ... anyway its ok

ngayon lang ulit

sensya na ngayon lang ako nakapag post sa blog ko wala lang went to quiapo a while ago namili ng mga dvds and anime nandun ako for 3 hours ikot ikot lang..weird nawala yung mga binilhan ko ng porn lol kainis di na tuloy ako nakabili pero dami ko nabili na mga movies eehehheh bumili din ako ng album para sa mga dvds ko hehehhehehe

ngayon lang ako makakapag upload ng pics kasama dito yung mga pictures dun sa toycon sa makati and syempre kasama yung mga bago kong pictures hehhehe nagpagupit ako kaya bago "image" lol sana naman mapansin nako nung crush ko pero alam mo yun cguro pasko na kaya iniisip kong magpartner di ko naman dedeny gusto ko na talga magkaron ulit ng love life pero ayokong yun yung reason ko para magkapartner ... ang totoo dami ko crush pero yung iba ni hindi nga ako pinapansin yung iba naman ewan ko iba gusto sakin makikipag meet pero me hihiramin lang or me gusto lang makta hay.... meron ako tinetxt ngayon na cute pero di ko alam kung san patungo gusto ko ulit maramdaman yun... yung magkagusto ka sa isang tao na talagang gustong gusto mo hindi yung sya magkagusto sayo ..yung kaw yung magkagusto sa kanya sarap ng feeling taong mahal mo binalik yung pagmamahal na binibgay mo... i mean yes ok din yung me magkakagusto sayo and mahal ka pero masarap parin yun ung gustong gusto mo nagkagusto din sayo hay kelan ko ulit mararamdaman yun me kukwento ako pero saka na antok na kc ako e dami ko gusto ko sabihn pero ngayon upload lang ako pics hehehhehe