dear john

dear j

kumusta ka na hope ok ka decided to write you a letter since feeling ko yun lagi gawa ko mula nung nakita ko pic mo hehehhe hope ok ka po musta dyan sa lugar mo wala ka bang plans pumunta ulit dto manila?

ako ok naman busy day since sabi ng operations dadami daw calls namin this year hay pero ok lang kc normal number of calls ko e 10 so kung aabot to ng 20 ok parin di stressfull paglabas ko kanina grabe ang lamig buti nalang naka jacket ako was listening maybe by neocolors sa itouch ko naaalala kta hehehhe corny diba pero ganon talga ako tol cant stop thinking about you. i know i know marami ka tyak na admirers pero wala lang atleast wanted to say na grabe tama ko sayo hehehheh i admit talaga na me crush ako sayo sana ok lang wag ka po alala hehehhehe di na po ako mag eemail baka nakukulitan ka na sakin sa mga good morning ko sabagay di ko naman lagi gnagawa yun pero feeling ko lang baka nakukulitan kana sa kin sa kaka email ko sayo

natuwa lang ako sayo one time nung nag email ka nung cnabi mo na ako lang ba talga? lol cguro nag titrip ka non hehehhehe yeah kaw lang ka email ko well kaw lang yung ka email ko na ganon na isang email mo 2 email cnasagot ko sayo hehehehhe yeah i like you and kahit gaano ka kalayo pupunta parin ako dyan makta ka lang... pero
now i decided to stop this foolishness its better narin for me i mean lets face it
reality check impossible talagang magkagusto ka sakin di naman tayo bagay and tyak gusto mo kasing edad mo kaya tama na cguro yun kakahiya man sensya na di po kc malakas loob ko ... ganda ng panahon ngayon grabe lamig ng hangin tapos ang liwanag pa ng buwan at bituin sarap maglakad habang nakikinig ng love songs sarap ng feeling na inlove ka hehehehehe

anyway yun lang po ingat ka lagi ha alagaan mo sarili mo pansin ko laging midnight ka mag email sana wag ka magpupuyat lagi lagi kta pagdadasal na sana makita mo hanap mo and sna lagi kang happy always take care of yourself heheheh



jerome

sensya na wla ako lakas ng loob padala to sayo ewan ko ba siguro
di na talaga ako marunong hehehhehe

grabeng diet toh

hirap pala pero ok lng isa lang naman ang batas ko bawal ang rice at bread pork sobang konting konti lang talaga yun lang nasa ginisang gulay ang nakakain ko
routine ko lagi pag gisng ko fruits(pakwan melon o pinya) gulay(kahit anong ginisang gulay) at isda (gg daing na bangus tilapia) araw araw tuwing hapon lang naman ako kumakain kaya ok lang yan after my shift gym naman ako everyshift eto routine ko di naman ganon katagal konting threadmill at buhat since inaantok nako at hilo hehehehhe
twice a week nag titimbang ako first and last day of shift sa ngayon nasa 204lbs ako which is ok compared to firstweek of june nasa 210lbs ako

pero gustong gusto ko na talgang pumayat goal ko ngayon is 190lbs i mean matngal lang tong tyan ko happy nako o kya mapaliit ko sya happy nako minsan lang nakakainis di ka nila gusto dahil sa ganon mataba ka pangit ng tingin nila sayo and talagang hindi ko na gusto yung feeling na ganon lalo na pag nasa gym ka pag nasa locker ka tapos ganon tingin nila sayo na parang naaawa o minsan ayaw ka nilang tingnan minsan nasa wet sauna ako mag isa lang tapos me papasok na guy nung naktang ako lang nasa loob d na pumasok di ko alam kung bakt ganon ang sama ng feeling nakakainis kaya ngayon talgang gagawin ko lahat para pumayat

tampo ako ngayon dahil sa mga kasama ko sa office kc naman 830p nandto set up ko na tools ko and headset ko tapos pag balik ko after 3hrs wala na yung station ko nilog off ako sa pc badtrip na badtrip ako kaya ngayon nasa sulok lang ako di mo na ako namamansin yaan ko nalang muna cla mali naman kc talga kaya nga ako pumasok ng maaga para me station nako at makuha ko station na gusto ko tapos ganon ewan ko yaan mo na mawawala rin naman inis ko e

nakwento ko ba sayo na me crush ako heheheh ewan ko kung nsabi ko na yun sa prev blog ko pero meron and lakas tama talga ako pero napag isip isip ko di ko na tutuloy manligaw heheheh(ligaw talga) pano bata kc wala pang 20 e ako ilang taon na ko diba impossibleng magkagusto sakin kaya tama na mangarap back to reality nalang muna ako pero talaga di ko matanggal kakaisip ko sa kanya kaya kanina tinanggal ko na yung email nya sa blog ko kc yun lagi kong tinitingnan para makapag move on ako lol corny no lol pero ganon talga e lakas tama talaga frst time kong magkaganito ulit pagkatapos ng mahabang panahon hehehehhehehe anyway concentrate nalang ako sa pagpapayat sana me magkagusto sakin pag ok na katawan ko hehehhe yoko namang maging slim e tama na sakin yung stocky muscular ok sakin yun pero ayokong maging payat na payat na petite lol nun lang kcng pumayat ako sarap ng feeling magaan pakiramdam ko tapos parang me control ako sa buhay ko non ... kaya ngayon babalik ko yun

and as usuall nasa bottom ako sa scorecard hay bagsak nanaman hehheheh pero ok lang wala tayo magagawa dyan ayusin ko nalang sa jan-feb hehehhe sana makabawi ako patay nanaman ako sa shiftbid nito hehehehe hay dasal dasal nalang...

best story i've read

Somewhere in Milaor, Camarines Sur, there lived a fourth grader boy who
would follow this route to school everyday: He has to cross the rugged
plains and cross the dangerous highway where vehicles are recklessly
driving to and from. Once past this highway, the boy would take a short
cut, passing by the Church every morning just to say Hi to God, and
faithfully say his, "Magandang umaga po" in Bicol dialect. He was faithfully being
watched by a Priest who was happy to find innocence so uplifting in the morning,
"Kamusta, Andoy? Papasok ka na?"
"Opo padre ... "he would flash his innocent grin, the priest would be
touched. He was so concerned that one day he talked to Andoy. "From
school...", he advised "Do not cross the highway, you can pass through the
Church and I can accompany you to the other side of the road...that way I
can see that you are home safe...." "Thank you father ... "

"Why don't you go home ... why do you stay in
this church right after school?"

"I just want to say 'Hi' to my friend, God," and the priest
would leave the boy to spend time beside the altar,
talking to himself, but the priest was hiding behind the altar to listen
to what this boy has to say to his heavenly FATHER. "You know my math exam
was pretty bad today, but I did not cheat although my seatmate is bullying
me for notes... I ate one cracker and drank my water, Itay had a bad
season and all I can eat is this cracker. Thank you for this! I saw a poor
kitten who was hungry and I know how he feels so I gave my last cracker to
him ... funny but I am not that hungry. Look, this is my last pair of
slippers ...I may have to walk barefoot next week, you see this is about
to be broken... but it is okay....at least I am still going to school....
Some say we will have a hard season this month, some of my classmates have
already stopped going to school .... please help them get to school again,
please God? ..Oh, you know, Inay hit me again, it is painful, but I know
this pain will pass away, at least I still have a mother.... God, you want
to see my bruises? I know you can heal them.... Here... here and .... oh
..blood ..I guess you knew about this one huh? Please don't be mad at
Inay, she is just tired and she worries for the food in our table and my schooling that
is why she hits us....Oh, I think I am in love ... there's this pretty
girl in my class, her name is Anita ... do you think she will like me? Anyway, at least I know
you will always like me, I don't have to be anybody just to please you,
you are my very best friend! Hey your birthday is two days from now!!! Aren't you
excited? I am! Wait till you see, I have a gift for you ..... but it is a
surprise! I hope you will like it! Oooops, I have to go ..." then he stood
up and calls out, "Padre, padre, I am finished talking to my friend ....
youcan accompany me to the other side of the road now"
This routine happens everyday. Andoy never fails. Father Agaton shares
this every Sunday to the people in his church because he has not seen a
very pure faith and trust in God, a very positive look at negative
situations. One Christmas day, Father Agaton was sick so he could not make
it in the Church, he was sent to the hospital. The Church was left to 4
manangs who would chant the rosary in 1000 miles per hour, would not smile
and would always find fault in what you do, they were also very well
versed in cursing if you irritate them! They were kneeling, saying their
kilometric rosary when Andoy, coming from his Christmas party,playfully
dashed in. "Hello God! I ......"
"P----!! (a curse) bata ka!! Alam mo nang may nagdadasal!! Alis!!" Poor
Andoy was so terrified, "Where's Father Agaton? He is supposed to help me
cross the street ... and to be able to cross the street I will have to
pass by the back door of this church ...not only that, I have to greet
Jesus. It is His birthday, I have a gift right here.... " Just as he was
about to get the gift out of his shirt, the manang pulled his shirt and
threw him out of the church. "Susmaryosep!!! (does the sign of the cross
fervently) Alis kang bata ka, kung hindi matatamaan ka!!! So the boy had
no choice but to cross the dangerous side of the road in front of the
church. He crossed. A fast moving bus came in. There was a blind curve.
The boy was protecting his gift inside his shirt, so he was not looking.
There was so little time. Andoy died on the spot. A lot of people crowded
the poor boy, the body of a lifeless young boy ... Suddenly, out of
nowhere a tall man in a pure white shirt and pants, a face so mild and
gentle, but with eyes full of tears... He came and carried the boy in His
arms. He was crying. Curious bystanders nudged the man in white, and
asked, "Excuse me sir, are you related to this child?
Do you know this child?" The man in white, His face mourning and in agony, looked up and
answered, "He was my best friend .... " was all he said. He took the badly wrapped
gift in the bloody chest of the lifeless boy, and placed it near His
heart. He stood up and carried the boy away and they both disappeared in
sight. The crowd was curious ... On Christmas Eve, Father Agaton learned of the shocking news.
He visited the house, and wanted to verify about the man in white. He consulted the
parents of Andoy. "How did you know that your son died?"
"A man in white brought him here." sobbed the mother. "What did he say?"
The father answered, "He did not say anything. He was mourning. We do not
know him and yet he was very lonely about our son's death, as if he knew
our son very well. But there was something peaceful and unexplainable
about him. He gave me my son, and then he smiled peacefully. He brushed
my son's hair away from his face and kissed him on his forehead, then he
whispered something..." "What did he say?" "He said to my boy..." the father began,
"Thank you for the gift. I will see you soon ... you will be with me..." and the father
of the boy continued, "and you know for a while, it felt so wonderful ...
I cried, but I do not know why....all I know is I cried tears of joy ....
I could not explain it, Father, but when that man left, something peaceful came over me,
I felt a deep sense of love inside ... I could not explain the joy in my heart, I knew my boy is
in heaven now but... tell me, Father, who is this man that my son talks to
everyday in your church, you should know because you are always there ...
except at the time of his death ......"Father Agaton suddenly felt the
tears welling in his eyes, with trembling knees, he murmurred,
" ... He was talking to no one ..... but... GOD...."


(tuwing binabasa ko to naiiyak talaga ako grabe di ko alam kung bakit pero talagang nagpapasalamat talaga ako at nabasa ko to makes you value the small things you have in life.. that he's always there for you)

unang araw ng taon

january 1 of 2010 is no difference from any other year same old same old pero alam mo yun sabi nga nila kaw ang makakagawa ng difference

office parin gaya ng dati pero ok lang double pay naman e hehehehhe kaya dto ako nagpasko at nagbagong taon para di na mag iisip isip ng kung ano ano(me effect parin pala yun hehehhe dahil malamig ang pasko lol) mmff movies nanaman hehhehe kaya nanood ako ng movie minsan lang naman ako manood ng tagalog e as in tipong 3 o 4 times a year lang hehehhe nanood ako ng i love you goodbye, shake rattle and roll at mano po 6 lol

2009 hmm not a good year well balance lang siguro nakalagpas din ako ng 1 taon sa isang company heheheh dati kc after a year o after 6mos resign na heheheh dto na 1year and a half nako lol so ok naman ok din naman ako sa mga bagay bagay kc nabibili ko naman mga gusto ko ty talaga sa taas sa lahat ng biyaya na bgay sakin maswerte din ako sa mga kaibigan ko sa office mababait cla at tanggap nila pagiging abno ko sobrang swerte ko din sa supervisors ko ngayon babait so wala akong masasabi sa trabaho ko ty lord lang talaga for health medyo not good pnabayaan ko kc sarili ko kain lang ng kain lately lagi akong hirap huminga and naninikip dibdib plano ko nga mag pa ecg at patest ng sugar this rd ko tatakot na kc ako e baka me diabetes ako (wag naman po sana) so yun yung good yung bad... well sa puso sa rel sa pagiging bitter ko...deppression..inggit..galit..sobrang lungkot ..dami ko ding nasaktan tao dahil sa nararamdaman ko...ewan ko tanga lang talga ako pag dating sa love sana this year maayos ko yun.... kaya yan yes my 2009 is good and bad at the same time so walang tulag kabigin ang 2009 papasalamat parin ako sa laht ng binigay sakin sabi nga nila "what wont kill you, will make you stronger"

***oo nga pala nakta ko na x ko hehehehe one time umattend ako sa isang get to gether heheheh sumama ako and di ko alam na invited pala sya heheheh di naman kami nag usap nag hi and hello lang pero ok na din... tiny steps right so ok na yun isa kc yun sa mga plans ko this year umattend sa mga gimmiks na happening socialize ika nga

for 2010 laki ng plans ko hehehehhe meron akong 3 resolutions heheheh yes 3 each one i will apply everyday hehehhehe para mabago ko sarili ko meron pa ngang pang 4 e pero yung 4 kusa ng lalabas pag nagawa ko yung 3 resolutions ko

first---socialize heheheh syempre attend ako ng mga gimmiks at talgang makikihalubilo ako sa lahat papadamihin ko friends ko sa facebook at friendster tamang pr lang to parang kakandidato hehehhe pero ok na yun and yes pipilitin ko at kakayanin kong walang libog ang pakikipag meet ko sa kanila lol talagang barkadahan lang (LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES JEROME)

second---tangal sebo project tangina sana makaya ko to pero kelangan talga for health reasons na din mga 10-20lbs kelangan matangal ko at alam ko nanam makakaya ko yun basta meron lang ako mga plans na di ko dapat kalimutan...dasal dasal nalang para maayos ko sarili ko alam ko kaya ko ngayon palang nga sinisimulan ko na hehehhehe basta makakaya ko makakaya ko to lol eto talga ang lagi kong babantayan every week titimbang ako hehehehhehe

third---forgive and forget yes alam ko.. kelangan na talaga kahit paunti unti gagawin ko to be honest di ko alam kung kaya ko pa pero gagawin ko ... di ako di naman siguro ibig sabhin non plastik ako diba? i mean siguro pag nandun nako dun na magiging ok ang lahat pagkaharap ko nayung mga taong ayaw kong makta pag nandyan na sila .. dun ko malalaman kung ok na di ako magiging plastik pero gusto ko narin mawala yung galit ko sa kanila mali nga e di naman siguro dapat galit maramdaman ko


so ngayon eto yung magiging career ko sa buong taon in a way para ko narin binabago sarili ko pero ok lang for the good naman di ba kaya ko to alam ko.. just need to believe in myself hingi nalang ako ng tulong ke bro hehehehe alam ko naman tutulungan nya ko hehehhee happy new year everyone sana basahin nyo pa lahat ng blogs ko and please be a follower heehehhe pag kc alam kong me nagbabasa lalo akong nagsusulat sa blog ko ..ingat lagi

God is in control:

A man from Norfolk , VA called a local radio station to share this on Sept 11th, 2003, TWO YEARS AFTER THE TRAGEDIES OF 9/11/2001.

His name was Robert Matthews. These are his words:

A few weeks before Sept. 11th, my wife and I found out we were going to have our first child. She planned a trip out to California to visit her sister. On our way to the airport, we prayed that God would grant my wife a safe trip and be with her. Shortly after I said 'amen,' we both
heard a loud pop and the car shook violently. We had blown out a tire. I replaced the tire as quickly as I could, but we still missed her flight. both very upset, we drove home.

I received a call from my father who was retired NYFD. He asked what my wife's flight number was, but I explained that we missed the flight.

My father informed me that her flight was the one that crashed into the southern tower. I was too shocked to speak. My father also had more news for me; he was going to help. 'This is not something I can't just sit by for; I have to do something.'

I was concerned for his safety, of course, but more because he had never given his life to Christ. After a brief debate, I knew his mind was made up.. Before he got off of the phone, he said, 'take good care of my grandchild. Those were the last words I ever heard my father say; he died while helping in the rescue effort.

My joy that my prayer of safety for my wife had been answered quickly became anger. I was angry at God, at my father, and at myself. I had gone for nearly two years blaming God for taking my father away. My son would never know his grandfather, my father had never accepted Christ, and I never got to say good-bye.

Then something happened. About two months ago, I was sitting at home with my wife and my son, when there was a knock on the door. I looked at my wife, but I could tell she wasn't expecting anyone. I opened the door to a couple with a small child.

The man looked at me and asked if my father's name was Jake Matthews. I told him it was. He quickly grabbed my hand and said, 'I never got the chance to meet your father, but it is an honor to meet his son.'

He explained to me that his wife had worked in the World Trade Center and had been caught inside after the attack. She was pregnant and had been caught under debris. He then explained that my father had been the one to find his wife and free her. My eyes welled up with tears as I thought of my father giving his life for people like this. He then said, 'there is something else you need to know.'

His wife then told me that as my father worked to free her, she talked to him and led him to Christ. I began sobbing at the news.

Now I know that when I get to Heaven, my father will be standing beside Jesus to welcome me, and that this family would be able to thank him themselves .

When their baby boy was born, they named him Jacob Matthew, in honor of the man who gave his life so that a mother and baby could live.

This story should help us to realize this: God is always in control.

We may not see the reason behind things, and we may never know this side of heaven, but God is ALWAYS in control.

Please take time to share this amazing story. You may never know the impact it may have on someone. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Give thanks to the Lord for He is good. His love endures Forever.
Psalm 136:1


(painting is from the artist joey velasco i love his paintings of jesus)

december 25

hay parang ang haba ng araw na to syempre me pasok ako ng 12a dec 25 dto nako ng 11p
hehhehe good thing about this time pag december 25 wala calls as in 0 calls talaga hehehhe arrive home 11a tulog ako woke up 330p then went to the mall by 8p megamall gala lang decided to watch movie mmff syempre hehehhe(jologs na kung jologs hehehe
support ko na to sa movie industry lol) 3 gusto kong panoorin mano po 6 mahilig ako sa melodrama tipong inaapi tapos gumaganti sa huli hehehhehe i love you goodbye maganda rin nakakaiyak kc yun and dinanas ko na din lol and shake rattle and roll hehehehhe pnanood ko yung horror and good natuwa naman ako matagal na kc akong di nakakarinig ng sigawan sa theater hehehehe yung jologs na sigawan sumisigaw kahit wla pang gulatan lol nakakatuwa tapos derecho work 12a of dec 26

daming magagandang movie ngayon grabe the last air bender, dear joe, clash of the titans, lightning thief, case 39

pasko parang normal na araw lang samin hindi nga kami nag decorate e i dont know cguro christmas is for kids talga ako kc i always believe i have my own way of thanking him and hindi naman kelangan maging pasko para magbgay di kailangan ng okasyon para maging masaya kelangan lang marunong kang magmahal para maging masaya ka
every time na me ngyayaring maganda sakin i always thank god literally sisigaw lang ako ng "thank you lord" and lagi ako nagpapasalamat sa lahat ng pag subok na binibgay sakin i thank everything that was given to me and everything that i have and everything that was left on me... that way my life would continue sya lang naman talga me hawak ng buhay ko kaya lahat ng ngyayari..papasalamat lang ako kahit minsan sobrang sakit minsan nararamdaman mo nawawala yun i remember nung time na pumpunta ako ng church lagi ako naiiyak tuwing communion offertory and yung kordero ng dyos na mga songs di ko alam kung bkt

and love ... i dont know fubu nalang muna siguro hahanapin ko tipong makakasama ko kada gimik

good story sent to me thru email

Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said,

'Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty.'

Then the second tree said, 'Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull.'

Finally the third tree said, 'I want to grow to be the tallest and
straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the Hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me.'

After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, 'This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter, 'and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.

At the second tree the woodsman said, 'This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard.' The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.

When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the Woodsmen said, 'I don't need anything special from my tree, I'll take this one,' and he cut it down.

When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.

The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end.

The third tree was cut into large pieces, and left alone in the dark.

The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.

Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.



Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and He stood and said 'Peace' and the Storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.




Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.



The moral of this story is that when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, God will give you great gifts.

Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined.

We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.

Please keep this moving... pass it on, so God may inspire more people on the way.

May your day be blessed. And until we meet again, may God cradle you in the palm of His hand.